rambling

i tell you what, i never knew my life would be this tough.
i have done things in my past that i am not happy about, but
its too late to change it now. i have 6 kids that have been
in my life for a number of years. 3 of my own. 3 sons that
i love and will do anything for. i love all the kids not just
my own. they may not understand, but i only want them to do
better than i have done with my life. i have been told i have
a cold heart, but that is only when i am really mad and upset.
i am try to get my thoughts together and deal with my short
comings. the woman that i have been in love with for the past
5 years has finally gotten fed up with my inability to be the
man she thinks i can be