try to be happy

what is happiness?
happiness is a state of mind or feeling characterized by contentment, love, satisfaction, pleasure, or joy
you keep telling me that i need to find it
but i have had it all the time
you dont want to see it
i have been happy with myself

It Bothers Me

You know what bothers me?
It bothers me that i was a fool.
Not a fool for you but a fool for not appreciating you for who you are
for not holding you closer and feeling the warmth of your touch
for not looking at you for the beautiful woman you are

it bothers me that i was a fool
not for you but for not listening to you when your sweet vocal cords say my name
for not holding fast and raging against the things that would have made life easier
for not staying cool and calm when the world seems to be falling down around me

it bothers me that i was a fool
not for you but for not loving you the way YOU wanted to be love
for not being the sweet and caring soul that guilds us through the dark
for not showing you that true love that i say i have for you

but most of all it bothers me that we may never be....
but maybe in time we can have a do over and i promise to do it right...