its been a long 24 hours
i have come to the realization that
i am a good man
i am worth being happy
i am not bitter
i just hope that you find what you are looking for
i thought i was it but i see now i wasnt even close
you want to go out and look for something you had
you were too blind to see that i am that man that would give up every thing for you
oh well
we live and we learn

to has been a lazy day.
i am trying to get used to this cpap machine
i have been fighting it all the way
i know its suppose to help me sleep better and not feel tired
but is so uncomfortable
its like someone is blowing in you face all the time while you are trying to sleep
i am also trying to deal with a break up with a woman that i love
i have been stubborn about alot
and i guess that i am being stubborn about this because i do love her
and there wasnt anything that we couldnt have worked out
i mean i never gave up
its depressing
i have been dealing with depression most of my life
and she did make me happy.

where did i go so wrong?

today is a new day
but i cant help but thing about yesterday
i had a vision of what i wanted my future to be
but it went so wrong
yes i made some mistakes
but i never stopped trying
i had plans for us to be together
but it went so wrong
yes i didnt always make it to the top
but i never stopped loving you.....

i hope one day you can see that i was a good man