Christmas '09

Well another Christmas is in the books. I didn't really do much. I got a few things for the kids and cards for my Mom and Nicole. I know this is a hard time of the year for me. Christmases have never really been a happy time for me but this year I was not going to let my past dictate this year. I got to see all my sons. The younger ones got a tool set and easel. My oldest son got a book bag (that he really needed) and binders for school work. I am going to try and help him get more organized with his school work. I have mixed emotions about the holiday seasons. On one hand i want to think that "this year will be a happy year" but on the other hand I feel it will not be. This year is tough because I am once again alone. I guess it is of my own doing. I have let down the most important people in my live and I really let down the one I love the most. I am working on fixing the things i can and making the best of what god has given me. I am going to be a better man one step at a time. Merry Christmas